Holy crap. How long has it been since I wrote a journal?
But yeah. I'm still alive. I've been checking Devwatch messages and adding random favorites when I feel inspired to search for something in particular, but otherwise I've just been lurking; and I apologize for my lack of activity.
Long story short, I had a pretty daunting depression spell shortly after leaving for my Juniors Abroad trip. I felt like I was on top of the world when I came back from that trip, but then the depression and doubts settled in again when I was stuck working overtime most of the summer and hardly had the time or energy to make art. If anything, I felt even MORE trapped than I did before.
I feel like I've changed for the better in the past year, though. Despite my moping and laziness and social anxiety that has gotten worse despite (or maybe it's because of) working in Retail, I feel more confident in the fact that I chose to be a Studio Art major. I feel like a stronger person overall. Instead of telling people "oh, um, well, i'm keeping my options open?" When they ask me what I'm going to do with an Art degree, I tell them that I'm going to live my own adventures and make art because it makes me happy; because it's always made me happy and makes me feel like I'm part of something wonderful. Heck, just getting back into the habit of sketching on notebook paper during lectures has started to cheer me up again.
I can't say for sure when I'll be uploading art. I'm hoping to get a majority of my best photos from my Abroad trip uploaded in the near future, and after that, I may very well just start uploading my notebook sketches just to encourage myself to keep drawing. I've got to get myself out of this rut one way or another.
I'll also be working on my Senior show: a display of seven pastel drawings of birds that represent part of my own spiritual and emotional journey. I'm highly looking forward to working on that.... after my pastel paper gets delivered and after my sprained ankle heals, of course...
- I am now hooked on Free! and Shingeki no Kyojin, and it's because of Tumblr. Fantastic.
- My roommates are driving me even crazier than last year. I'm hoping it won't wind up being like a terrible Disney sitcom.
- I'm tired of trying to hide my more hormonal side just because of who may or may not be seeing my dA, I'm a 21-year-old in college that gets turned on ridiculously easily, so deal with it.
- I rewatched the entirety of Avatar: The Last Airbender last spring (before it got taken off of Netflix Instant...) and was reminded just how amazing it is as a show overall.