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  • Mood: Gloomy
Wow.

It's been a year since I even so much as touched this account. Yikes. :dead:

It felt pretty jarring to finally log back on and see the flood of journals and deviations. And kinda disheartening. I missed out on a lot of awesome artwork and stories and such, and I want to apologize for just...straight-out disappearing like that.

I have been considering rebooting this account for a long time now. There's a lot of my old art I can't stand to look at anymore, but I've never believed in putting art into storage and robbing people (who for some inexplicable reason still like looking at my work) the chance to still keep it in their favorites. There's still a few stories and ideas floating around in my head that, one of these days, I need to flesh out and post.

Hell, the only art I've really been making since May is for my other.. adult-themed dA account. And I still wonder if it's a waste of my skills. I sure don't intend to make a living as an ero-artist/writer but as of lately, it's been a huge outlet for me. One that I know without a doubt my parents would shun me for.

Things haven't been easy since graduating college. I'm at a stand-still, hovering between not being quite able to leave my job in retail yet and figuring out what the hell it is that I want to do with my art degree. I've practically fallen off the face of the earth in regards to my close friends back where I'm from, and the friends I met online that really gave me a reason to be happy at the end of each day. I fight off anxiety and dread for the future every night before I go to sleep. I'm dealing with medical issues beyond depression that leaves me feeling fatigued every day whether I work that day or not. How ironic that the last journal I have up here is one about depression; which I actually did manage to defeat at the end of my Hellish senior year in college, only to spiral back into a slump.

I'm trying hard to keep myself motivated but even on my other account, I'm disappointing people by not having the motivation to reply to Notes (though it certainly doesn't help that Notes doesn't always cooperate...) and... I just don't know where to go from here. One side of me tells me to fight the power, go out there and enjoy the world and show people what I can do with my art... and the other side of me is just terrified.

Bleh, enough of my whining. This is a battle I'll win one way or another. It's just an exhausting ride.

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Hikari-Dareigan
Erin
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States
No need to thank me for favorites. Thank you for the art. :meow:


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  • Mood: Gloomy
Wow.

It's been a year since I even so much as touched this account. Yikes. :dead:

It felt pretty jarring to finally log back on and see the flood of journals and deviations. And kinda disheartening. I missed out on a lot of awesome artwork and stories and such, and I want to apologize for just...straight-out disappearing like that.

I have been considering rebooting this account for a long time now. There's a lot of my old art I can't stand to look at anymore, but I've never believed in putting art into storage and robbing people (who for some inexplicable reason still like looking at my work) the chance to still keep it in their favorites. There's still a few stories and ideas floating around in my head that, one of these days, I need to flesh out and post.

Hell, the only art I've really been making since May is for my other.. adult-themed dA account. And I still wonder if it's a waste of my skills. I sure don't intend to make a living as an ero-artist/writer but as of lately, it's been a huge outlet for me. One that I know without a doubt my parents would shun me for.

Things haven't been easy since graduating college. I'm at a stand-still, hovering between not being quite able to leave my job in retail yet and figuring out what the hell it is that I want to do with my art degree. I've practically fallen off the face of the earth in regards to my close friends back where I'm from, and the friends I met online that really gave me a reason to be happy at the end of each day. I fight off anxiety and dread for the future every night before I go to sleep. I'm dealing with medical issues beyond depression that leaves me feeling fatigued every day whether I work that day or not. How ironic that the last journal I have up here is one about depression; which I actually did manage to defeat at the end of my Hellish senior year in college, only to spiral back into a slump.

I'm trying hard to keep myself motivated but even on my other account, I'm disappointing people by not having the motivation to reply to Notes (though it certainly doesn't help that Notes doesn't always cooperate...) and... I just don't know where to go from here. One side of me tells me to fight the power, go out there and enjoy the world and show people what I can do with my art... and the other side of me is just terrified.

Bleh, enough of my whining. This is a battle I'll win one way or another. It's just an exhausting ride.

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:icondigitalkay:
DigitalKay Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014
I love how you suck.

not really, people who suck as bad as you offend me..you offended me well done, you suckfuck
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Hikari-Dareigan Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Awesome! :dummy:
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LillyGothCat Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday
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Hikari-Dareigan Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
thank you! :)
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LillyGothCat Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yw
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Catosan Featured By Owner May 30, 2013  Student Photographer
Thanks for your fav :)
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Hikari-Dareigan Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
sure thing!
Sorry for fav-and-running, I wasn't feeling all that great. Your pic cheered me up though :) I just love the way the reds blend into the sunset and the ground/water, it gives it a dreamy quality.
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Catosan Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Student Photographer
Hey that cheered me up too! :D Glad you liked it!
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XxiLive4SeddieXx Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Love your webcam. (:
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Hikari-Dareigan Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Haha, thanks =P
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